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(Credit: Judith beholding holofernes by OG by Caravaggio, edited by me)

Hi, I wanna be honest forever, and that’s the hardest thing to do I guess.

While I’m writing this article, I’m listening to bad bunny,

It’s almost 2 months since my mind blowing. The conclusion just one point, I HATE COLLAGE.

Every body chasing money and my idea was attacked by the environment. It’s suck.

Most of my time, I spent em by making music or thinking, or even watching the films that maybe I watched for 3 times. It’s just because I like movie and cinema, cause actually I wanna be a film maker.

I also wanna study about Islamic society, taughts, and civilization, something that I’ve been dreamin’ in my life.

I don’t wanna study in the collage system, the collage system is sssssucks,

My bad scores, brought me to another move to get another bad scores.

I remember when, my teachers from the JHS told me ‘bout the story of some scholars from the tabi’in era. I just amazed with the system. 

And nowadays, school and collage system, maybe one of the reason why people be a corruptor etc, you know why? Cause when they forced to get something’ they can’t and they’re not watched, they cheat. Just simple. Like “oh shoot, I didn’t study, if my score bad, I have to pay for the short semester, and do the freakin’ borin’ stuff in the class for a whole month, and I have to cheat”, Wow, that’s an outstanding move really.

One day when I was alone, then I realized,

What we do now, is what we dream when we were just kid, with limited knowledge, and skills. We were dreamin’ about being a doctor, soldier, astronaut (even we don’t really know the truth about it), etc. then there’s a system in front of us that support us to sChOol StUFf blablabla. God I’m tired. 

Or the system forced us to do it. ‘till one day we say, some thing such “oh wow, your word please!” 

“You don’t know ‘bout it?” “we should pay this for that, and do this for that”, the positive point is we learn, the negative you can find by your self.

But,

Now we grown up, we read, I mean WE REALLY READ, not just a book, even the market, the night, the society. Etc.  bcause, you know, how many person that reading book, but never read theire family, their mom, their believe.

I have a lot of plan, but you know, people are different. “What re you doin’?” “make a cool pics” I said. “c’mon man stop that, you gotta do that, blablabla”, I just wanna ask them? Are drawing or creating something never be a skill?? Except for someone like Caravaggio, da vinci, etc???. it’s just a sample man, many of us maybe faced that moment.

I wrote this, cause I just need a trust from people around me.

Making a History, is not for A Coward. And I’m not a coward.